I hope I get to talk to you a lot during this one week vacation of yours..
Becasue i know that your next term would be hard as there would be days that
you would be going home late nights....some even until 9.
Which means that you will reach home by 10...
And whats worse, you'll go to vegan for a whole day or two... maybe even 3....
I just cant take not talking to you for a long time... Or not talking to you in general...
Im scared. Really freaking scared.
Im just too far away from you. We dont have a normal relationship.
I dont want to lose you.. I just really dont...
As much as i want to have you all to myself, i know you have family and school too...
And i have to understand that. As much as it hurts. As much as it kills me...
I'll try my best to understand to the very end.
This would all be easy if I get to see you everyday. I would understand better, and i would be feeling much more secured.
But im not. Its never easy for us. After spending 10 years far from you.. I just csnt spend anymore time away from you...
I miss you so much. More than you'll ever know. Please dont leave me.
Please.... Love me. And only me. Dont love another. Because im afraid to loose you..
I really am afraid to loose you. If i loose you... I'd loose my humanity and my sanity... :(
I LOVE YOU JILLIANNE V. BERTOL. I LOVE YOU TILL THE VERY END OF ME.. ♥
Its been 2 years since our breakup...
ReplyDeleteI already wrote so many letters to you that you will never see, so I will just sum it all up.
I don't know the Nico that isn't in love with me but nonetheless, I miss you. I check up on you from time to time but I am too tired to talk to you. I give up Nico. I gave up for quite some time now.
Now, eventhough you are still my one true love, I came to believe that there are others. I hope we find them. Be happy Nico. I found myself and contentment within. NS is about to end, explore and travel soldier.
I hope one day you may come across this and know I always cared for you. Somebody cared for you even at the darkness of your times. You may not feel and see it but that is the truth.
Anyways, I will always love you my first love.
Goodbye honey, bearlbiee...
Love always, Jill <3 1/19/2015